Elimination

Looking at the people I choose to be around is a constant process of elimination it seems.

So many are fighting to change from the ways that led them here. Fighting to change for family, friends, their victims, for everyone but not for themselves.

Someone I was hanging out with who seemed to be on the same path as me has totally gone the other way. I see her work the system, manipulate her very self. Making excuses, lying, gossiping, running from positive things we have here, such as church and yoga.

I see the very person I was with last time I was here. The very person I'm not. I'm happy I see things so much clearer. My eyes are open, my heart is open. I don't encourage her deceitful ways. I don't listen to her try, and convince me of what she's trying to sell with empty words with no follow through actions.I speak the truth to myself. And, well, sometimes I tell her about herself, out of love and understanding.

It's not always comfortable to let the process of elimination run its course. Sometimes I think I'm strong enough to stand against them who are not serving themselves first. Then I look around at the physical prison I'm in. A great reminder to stand up for myself and my needs.