Searching for my place...?

I'm at a loss of which way to go and am finding that it's very uncomfortable. So here are things i've done since coming out of prison.

1. Stayed clean
2. Got off transleave
3. Found a now full time job (went through a couple to get here)
4. Pay my own rent
5. Stay clean
6. Stay away from criminal activity
7. Let people go that don't need to be in my life(not always comfortable but feels good after)
8. Attend meetings
9. Built relationships with family again and stronger with bounderies
10. Made new friends
11. Got into clean slate for my license
12. Utilized resources

Things that I still need to put more effort into:

1. My son and how to go about it right
2. School (deciding where to go and following up)
3. Checking in with Anakha, David, and Gene
4. Attend meetings more regulary
5. Stay connected to myself
6. Check in with self
7. Take better care of myself (food, exercise, yogo, meditation, spiritual)
8. Listen to others point of view
9. Buget money
10. Quit smoking
11. Read more
12. Figure out what set's of my depression and why I push people I care about away!!!

So I'm saying that I am trying to be open to some feedback. If anyone has any ideas. I can be stubborn at first but will think about it and think and think...so I just know some changes need to happen and that although im clean and crime free and I have a place to live and a job to support my self in. I feel something missing and even know what some of it is. Just having trouble figuring out why I can't seem to get the motivation to fix it.