15 Days! That's all the time I've been here at Coffee Creek. Everything seems to follow numbers some how. How many months you have in? How many months you have left? Not to mention counting weeks, days, hours, minutes. We are all assigned a number. Mine is 8 digits long. Just a little observation as my celly and I are waiting to be counted. ;-) Again with numbers.
Last night I got some mail from Gene that had blogs from Anakha and him. Comments from Anakha's blog also. Their blogs spoke about my sentencing day and so much more.
The WICS program I got to be a part of last year...Anakha as the facilitator...taught us "the awareness wheel." At the time I didin't want to do it, but for some reason it was in my dreams last night. So I thought I'd give it a shot this morning.
I am SENSING...slight headache, tired eyes, hot, hungry. I am FEELING...tired, calm, sad, happy, loved, a little anger, pain in my heart. Scared of things unknown, excited. I am THINKING...about change in my life, recovery, about courage, about strength, , about my mom, if she's okay and alive, about my sister (her pains mentally and physical pain she inflicts), thinking I wonder if she's mad I am here, same about my little brother, I am loved, I can change, I can be the woman I want to be. I WANT...strength, courage, advice, love, freedom from here, my sobriety, recovery, love, to love my self fully. My ACTIONS...to ask questions, to listen, to accept all the good things offered to me from those who love me, to breath, to stand, to pray to the Divine and give love and understanding. Thank you Anakha for all you are teaching me and continue to teach. Love always, Nichole
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