Coming Home to Myself

My time is changing again, friends are leaving. I find that I'm satisfied with myself for once. I don't need a buddy to do my time with 24X7. I can focus on myself and my recovery. I am not saying that I won't still reach out in my NA groups to recruit/attract new people. I am just saying that for once, I feel comfortable with me. With Nichole. Just as I am.

I find that since starting my 12 steps I find that I don't have as much to hide. I'm less ashamed. I am happier and confidant in positive ways. I am finding the courage to be the woman I'm destined to be.

Thank you to everyone who has been a part of my journey. In person or in the background -- thank you. Love, Nichole

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I was tired after work today, yet filled with an abundance of energy surging through my body and soul. I wasn't sure what I was going to do, so I asked my friend to go out and run. She said yes, so we went and changed and then met outside a few minutes later.

We started running and my lungs ached but my muscles screamed of enjoyment. Been too long. Not enough. Lap after lap I felt a wave of calmness come over my nervous system. I was filled with a pure, natural adrenaline only clean and sober living brings.

I am thankful today for another day clean and sober, to enjoy life on a real level -- not a false sense of reality.

Just for today.... :-)